Something I have learned over the past few years is how much I enjoy being alone and having me time. Now don't get me wrong, I enjoy spending time with others. I guess you can say that I am comfortable, and have a really good relationship with myself... ha ha. Although, I have not always been this satisfied with my personality. I would compare myself to outgoing people all the time and wish that I were more like them. I hated feeling like the awkward person sitting in the corner, looking at their phone because I was too nervous to approach anyone and strike up a conversation.
I am an introvert to the upmost. If I can choose a quiet evening at home with a small group of close friends (preferably 2-3) over a loud party with 20 or more people. I would choose the quiet evening with a few friends in a heartbeat. I find huge social gatherings exhausting and feel like they take a lot out of me. I am known for randomly slipping away from the crowd, finding a room or area with less people, to regain my composure.
This is something that took a long time to accept and I am still working through it. I have finally grasped hold to the fact that this is who I am. I have learned to not care what people think and be comfortable in my own skin. I have met several people that have the same issue when it comes to social settings and some of them are my best friends. They accept me for who I am and I accept them. Sometimes we even joke about our awkwardness which has brought us closer together.
Having an evening by myself is my favorite part of the day, that's why I enjoy writing this blog so much. I have complete control over this blog and I can make it reflect my personality. I can show bits and pieces of who I am. I can avoid the awkward introductions and the slow process of getting to know others; until I am comfortable enough to show them the quirky side of my personality.
Do you like time to yourself?
Are you an introvert and can you relate to me?